Themes this week are empowerment, money, gorgeousness, independence, awakening.
Hello gorgeous! You might think this title is a little straight-forward. Even arrogant. And let me tell you right now. it is not!
This morning I woke up and decided to go for a beautiful and inspiration walk around Seattle. I had truly not been out really it seems like months due to corona and working! I was holed up in my apartment, head down working on my business. AKA sitting at my laptop and desk for 12 hours. I wanted to have some fun. So I decided to spring for a coffee, (sometime I had not had in 8 months?) A short blonde roast at the local Starbucks really jazzed me up. :D.
From Painfully Self-Hating to GGGGORGEOUS
It was on this beautiful nature walk around gorgeous Seattle. I don’t know if it was the water, the cloudy sky with a little bit of blue peaking out, the rain-misted fresh air….
But I started to feel a little bit of energy……
…..I dunno if it had partly to do with my RTT session last night…..
….you know the one that has to do with money….
I mean we totally rewired and ripped out any limiting beliefs that I had abut money. And today I just feel so empowered.
Which got me thinking. Is money one of the best ways to be empowered?
Money and Empowerment
Sure, I felt really GOOD, stress free, and kind, calm when I worked on myself all those times. But when I regained the ability to think about money in a healthy, certainty attainable way, something flipped.
I turned in to the ULTRA version of myself.
I feel empowered, totally capable of making $10k months.
Even $20k months.
The feeling is like I am not myself anymore. I woke up and I got a coffee because I knew that today marked the last page in a chapter of my life.
The Start of A New Chapter
It’s a funny thing. This point I am at in my life, being 30, this day, really feels like the last page in a chapter. I am embarking on a new chapter of my life, and i guess the saying goes “every new level of life requires a new level of you.”
A couple things I noticed about this new level-uped me:
- I am fearless in showing excitement and empowerment: I am coming out like a butterfly, no longer a catapiller. There were times that I shrunk down my shoulders so that other women don’t think I’m pretty and therefore become threatened, and certainly shrugged my shoulders and lowered my eyes when a man was around incase they thought I was pretty. Now….psh. No way. I am pretty! And I am feeling myself. And it’s not arrogant. Everyone should feel gorgeous and beautiful and healthy. Everyone should love the skin they are in. It is totally possible and attainable. Especially with the tools, research, and facts we know about neuroplasticity. The brain is capable of making new neural pathways. This means if you always felt like the ugly duckling but wanted to be a swan, ( like i have), that feeling can go! it’s much easier than you might think.
2. I Feel that I am Enough
As I spoke yesterday, something clicked after the RTT session I did to rewire money beliefs. I looked at my Facebook feed, and I had been struggling with feelings of jealousy, or lack of specialness, or not enough, comparison for the last week. And I decided that I will not be comparing myself anymore. Comparison had become part of my identity. So much so that I felt the sliver off energy feeling it feels like to compare yourself. I felt half-human. And i Was. I was operating as a half-human because I was totally thinking other women were better, smarter, prettier, all together better then me. And i was so invested in their lives. No more. Today I saw a notification for some people who were doing awesome stuff, and instead offering less than or not special, i joined in and spoke my truth excitedly. I am enough and it shows in my confidence. I think people will react me to me differently now, because I don’t need to prove that I am good enough. I just am.
3. I can lean into discomfort
I used to be scared crapless that when I show “how good i am” whether that be showing up wearing a bomb outfit, hair and makeup looking great, but also having a beautiful heart and soul, it would threaten people. i never felt comfortable dressing up because I didn’t want to make anyone uncomfortable. So I would hide my body under sweaters and clothes that didn’t show it off. I didn’t want the attention.
Now though, well, this is a different ball game. If I feel someone is threatened it is a reflection of them. But what has changed is that my energy is different. What used to physically hurt me as a sensitive being was the energy of jealously. I could sense it. And it scared me. Now i have thicker skin, and i am happy and i know in my heart and mind, and emotions who I am and what I have been through. I have first-hand knowledge of who I am, not what someone has told me i am. And this makes self-trust easier. I can see the world around me clearly and I know what I want and I know what I’ve been through. And i am able to celebrate that! 😀
So…money…. who knew it was a way to level up empowerment. 😀 😉
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