Taylor Swift has a new and raw documentary called Miss Americana. It is set to be released at the end of January. The teaser said it is about her embracing her role and also using the full power of her voice. Which is just up my alley. It is slated as a transformational period in her life. Which is pretty much what I am doing here.
The mystique of a woman using the full power of her voice is really hard. You definitely need someone supporting you. I have been getting by pretty good and making progress on my own. It reminds me of climbing up a period. The little triangular part at the top is the goal. And walking up the side of it, one might encounter more tense obstacles and foes that will want to shut down your voice. Or the challenges will be confusing, for example, there are times when I’m not sure if it is appropriate to use my full voice, because I feel someone could interpret me as being insensitive or mean or rude. But I always feel like I gave up myself when I don’t. So I know for a fact that it is always beneficial to be in the power and use my voice. But sometimes I also get scared to use it. How crazy is it that using the full power of my voice can sometimes feel like starting a war. And standing in my own power feels very very wrong. But one thing that consoles me is something that I heard. That “I am the authority of my own energy.” It eases some tension inside to know that I don’t need to ask anyone’s permission to take up more space on the sidewalk, to say what is on my mind, to stop walking and take a break even if it is infant of a woman that wants me to move. She isn’t the authority of my energy. I am. And I will never be happy if I am a grandmother/old lady, looking at al of these young ladies and realizing i had the opportunity to realize my power and i was too scared. the time is now for change.