Over the past
Is it a
But I wasn’t down for the count yet! Mentally my mind was kicking my ass, and my surroundings (a messy room), a job where I only make enough to pay rent, and it seemed like the universe was on lock down. I remembered the quote “fall 7 times get up 8”
Still nothing, I was doing my empowerment affirmations saying “I matter” “I’m good enough.” “I believe in myself” but
But I watched the movie I Feel Pretty and the stars seemed to align. I now know that I am
Inspiration: (Here’s what I learned)
- I have within me the power to feel powerful and empowered. To really FEEL whatever I want to achieve, to FEEL beautiful. To FEEL powerful and super confident most of the time. But more
importantlyI learned that I can BE the leader. It is within me.
- There really is nothing wrong with me! As I’ve been documenting scrambling to find every helpful resource I could to heal me. But my friend was right when she
said“You are the only one to make that switch internally.” I doubted her so much because what I thought she was saying was airy-fairy, but I have proof and it’s because I can see with new eyes.
- The feeling of empowerment means that I don’t have to be anything other than me. I don’t have to feel slighted by others, I don’t have to sound like a man, I don’t have to be more aggressive because I am enough the way I am. Maybe enhance my skillset with a little more leadership coaching. But I am capable just by the virtue of being myself. It’s enough. It’s good enough.
- I believe that feeling empowered is the beginning step to being a strong, confident leader. It’s the baseline. I repeat there is nothing that you need to do to change yourself. You already are enough! I am enough. I thought to myself, what is it that I want for myself? Success? I can have it all. And then I got scared. And I thought Do I want Success? And my response was HELL YES. I can handle it. I can have anything I want even if I feel limited. I can rise above that limit. IT is possible.
I also had the realization that I don’t need to worry about what a guy that I like is doing. I don’t need to compare myself to another girl or wonder what to do if I am around other women. Because when you have the empowerment mindset, you feel that it makes no impact what the situation is. Because you think so highly of yourself (in a healthy way) it almost keeps them coming back because of how much freedom and lack of worry you put out. Which is an amazing relief!
Additionally, the movie I Feel Pretty has a powerful message. And while it is a looks-based movie, I took the meaning of feeling that you are so awesome and kind of falling in love with yourself. That is something that not a lot of people can do, so when you love yourself, you allow other people to love you. What’s interesting in this movie is everyone around her thinks she’s not the most attractive woman and they make rude comments! But their comments have no impact on her, they just bounce right off.
I finally, finally understand the wise quote “nothing is good or bad, but thinking makes it so.” I definitely thought that was just a nice superficial quote for the longest time. lol. But it has some depth and it is profound.
My next steps:
Continue to practice my daily mediation with affirmations, saying “I matter” “I own my power.”I feel powerful.”
Talk back to any negative thoughts I have in an effort to change my schemas
Let my confidence shine through even if people seem to be put off by it (This one is going to be a little difficult already!, but maybe not!)